AUTUMN

someday freedom will be found

life has consumed me. after feeling numb for so long, sometimes all i want is to feel, so my mind starts to self destruct itself. i destroy all good in my life, just to feel something. i feel like an addict.

gravid; gravid is project that was worked on over the course of august-november 2024. it included vocals on 60% of songs and was intended for release in november, however it was scrapped. i am intending on re-recording tracks and it will be released in the near future.

i had a dream about this one song. i was with this girl, it was playing back in my head. but the visuals of the dream seemed like they were recorded with some type of vintage camera.

Brothers and sisters, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things-and the things that are not-to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him. It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God-that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption. Therefore, as it is written: "Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord."

broke as fuck, hate my job, pressured to go to school, bad family life, addicted, no real friends, medical issues, no sleep,  paranoia, not eating, mental issues.